I dreamed that Ruth Reichl called to tell me that she was writing a big story about my chocolates for Gourmet.
“Thanks Ruth. But everything will change. I’m scared.”
“Don’t be scared of change. Condé Nast taught me that.”
“I’m not so much scared of change, as scared of and filled with rage for the mainstream world, you know?”
“But you love Gourmet. Have some faith in people.”
And she was gone, and I was awake, turning things over in my head. All I could think was: “Small is all.”
Stubborn, stubborn girl.