Thank you for writing this, Lagusta. While I believe we all should take responsibility for our health (when we can, because of course many don’t have that luxury), it is also scarily true that a great, great deal can go wrong regardless (and of course on top of this, it is impossible to be perfect in our own care). And when this happens, it is hard, oh so hard, not to blame oneself and to feel blame, or at least hints of it, from others, even if that isn’t their conscious intention. Partly all of this has to do with the desire to understand causes, but often that’s a fool’s errand. Your anger, which is mostly wonderful, really, is so well coupled with so much compassion–a natural pairing in many ways.